Friday my heart was so pinched and tight. I could not cum, I could not lust, I could not fill. I could not give.

I ran 18 miles this weekend… Saturday i ran twice. Sunday I ran again even though my body already hurt. I wrestled the kids till we were flush and sweaty and laughing hysterical on our backs. Walked into the ocean and gave all my senses over to it. I read and re-read what I needed too until I could begin to let my upset go. My heart started to open again. I wanted to masturbate almost immediately. As my arousal heightened… I breathed so hard and so deep, breathed all the way down and through my core. It was my first full breath since Friday. God it felt good.